i bought a new camera. a camera that i didn't really need. then i went to dc to visit kat for the weekend. baltimore.. d/c.. just some time to get away and relax. all in good fun... and yet i still feel the way i do. my dad left the hospital this evening. i called home to check in on saturday and i got a hold of my brother who said that i should call my dad. I was standing outside of the lincoln memorial when i found out that he was in the hospital. apparently, he had been admitted the day before..and someone forgot to tell me. that pissed me off. it still kinda does..anyway, i called. it was chest pains and he failed his stress test. (sometimes i wished i majored in a harder science) they were keeping him there for observation and would do an angiogram. and then there's ramon. i found out that one of our porters was going to take a three week vacation to see his mom down south. he hadn't seen her in 16 years. he was well on his way, until he got to TJ. apparently, life in tj has become a lot harsher in the past years and poverty has gotten worse. it's been so bad, it's to the point where boys have to eat their own feces in order to survive. so instead of him visiting his mom, he decides to turn around and come back up to spend the last couple of weeks raising money, collecting food, medicine, and supplies to help out the kids in TJ. On the weekends, he would take several trips a day just to take everything down. it's not something that you would hear everyday.. or is it something that you would expect someone to do with such selflessness and humility. i love that my job does feel like a job. i love the staff and watching everyone grow and change, but i feel like im missing something. i've been thinking about joining the peace core. a two year commitment isn't that long, but i can't imagine being far away from family. especially when one of deepest fears was almost realized. on the other hand, i think that if i didn't do it now.. or soon, i would never do it. i seriously don't know where i'm going with this. i guess it's been such a long time since i've blogged ... that i thought i would just put something out there. | 
only because i was psyched about the fight and was talking about cars. geez.. 
